This autoethnographic study delves deeply into my journey as a sibling who lost his brother through murder. The research will draw heavily on my own experience while making connections with theories and concepts such as violence, grief, structural violence, trauma, vicarious trauma, and sibling attachment theory. The qualitative nature of this study provides profound and personal insight into this challenging experience while also suggesting potential adjustments to various systems that could have made a difference in my life. In the end, I answer the following question: What effects do losing my brother to murder, as a young adult, have on my life and what recommendations may have mitigated the adverse effects? This study is significant for improved services, programming, and future research for people, especially young people, who have lost a sibling.